I dreamed God saved me from my own drowning

I had this dream during a very dark period of my life. I was standing on a small platform surrounded by endless water. After a short period of time, i see a figure descending from the sky, it was God. He stood before me.i look up at him and ask him to “kill me” since i couldn’t do it anymore, He tells me i wouldn’t dare to do such thing. I wanted to prove that i really wanted to die so i told him “watch me”. i jumped into the water and as i finally thought i was dying i saw a net below me. the net lifted me up and placed me back on the platform. i turn to God and angrily asked him why he saved me when i wanted to die